Daydreaming

I'm 5DPO.

My temperature this morning was 98.1. I actually did a double take because that is astronomical, even for post-ovulation. I actually had to put a new column in my spreadsheet. It really made my morning. My whole day, actually.

I actually remembered to take muc.inex on my most fertile days, we used all the good days, and I had a dream that I took a pregnancy test and it was so positive that there were three pink lines. So we'll see what happens. But don't worry, I have learned not to hold my breath. This month I will not get ahead of myself.

I will not analyze every little "symptom" that I "experience". Surely this crampy feeling can be attributed to the...ok I drew a blank. And I'm sure the reason that I can smell the individual contents of the garbage from across the room is because it is just a stinky day.

And I will not analyze the calendar either. Except that I totally did, and now I know that if I did conceive this cycle and the child lived, I would be entering my second trimester on Christmas Day. Wouldn't that be awesome?

And I'm not looking at maternity clothes and changing tables on craigsl.ist. That would be silly. Who needs maternity clothes? Not this lady.

And I'm definitely not to decorating a nursery in my mind. Except I already have the theme picked out and I've decided that I like cherry furniture the best.

So I lied; this month is just like all the other months. I can't decide if it is hope or stupidity.

When will I learn to assume I am not pregnant until proven pregnant? It would make the CD1s so much easier.